Smile

So while Charlie and I were cuddeling on the couch watching some kids, a song came on that inspired me to write this blog.

"Think about something that makes you smile
Think about it for a little while
What you feel and what you see
And give your smile to me"

I have been feeling a bit down lately, Im leaving coffs and I have been a wee bit home sick the past couple days. I dont know if im actually home sick for Canada, or if im homesick for Moree! (I reckon Moree) I really cant wait to go back there, only one more week and I will be back to my second home, and only two more months and I will be back to my first home!

Anyway, when this song came on it got me thinking about things that make me smile, and I smile quite a bit so lets get real here there must be heaps of things that make me smile!!

Talking to my family makes me smile, I miss them and seeing them on Skype, or hearing their voices always leaves me with a HUGE smile on my face.

Charlie makes me smile always, seeing him smile puts a smile on my face. Hearing his cute little laugh puts an even bigger smile on my face.

Rosie and George make me smile, hearing Rosie say "Relle!!" melts my heart and leaves a smile on my face for ages!!

Photography/my camera can ALWAYS put a smile on my face, no matter what kind of mood I am in, give me a camera and I will be all smiles.

Skylar puts the biggest smile on my face on a daily basis, she always knows what to say and always makes me feel better. I love her the most and I cant wait to spend my last two months of Australia with her in Moree.

Nicole and Pat always say the right things, they always put a smile on my face, and make me feel amazing about myself. I love them with all my heart and more, and miss them with everything!

My friends put a smile on my face

The ocean makes me smile, I feel at peace there, its quiet, its beautiful and its calming. Im going to miss being so close to such a beautiful thing.

The experience that I am having in Australia makes me smile. I feel so lucky! I am so lucky that I am able to have this experience! And it truely is the most amazing experience anyone could ever have. Australia makes me feel at home when Im not.

These are a few things that make me smile. What are some things that make you smile?

Packing

So today i started packing.... this will be my third time packing up my things!
First I was packing everything to come to Australia, Second I was packing everything to leave Sarah and Willys and come to Coffs Harbor (which was probably sadder than actually packing up my things to leave Canada) Now thirdly I am packing up my things to move back to Moree once again! And it is a bit sad this time around, its exciting but sad. I will miss being here thats a fact but Moree is my favorite place. I will just miss Prue and Jock and Charlie and their crazieness. They make me smile I do love them, and it will be hard to say goodbye to them! Especially Charlie, I know he is going to miss me, and I will miss that little man with all my heart. I definitely have to come back to Coffs for a visit within my last two months.... AHHH!!! Anyway, out of the whole 12 months of being in Australia I will have packed up all my things a total of four times... and my fouth time packing will be packing all my things to leave Australia! Not to come to Australia to leave... :(

Where has the time gone?

I feel as if yesterday I was just arriving in Australia and it was August 3 2010....... and now its May 25 2011 and I'm leaving Australia in two months... two months and I will be back in the place I left behind. Just two more months left and I will be back home. Can you believe it? I can't.
Where has the time gone.. There is still so much I want to do, still so much I want to see in this beautiful country.
If ten months went by with the blink of an eye... I cant imagine how fast these last two months will go. These last two months of my beautiful life in Australia. Two months and it will be over...
Its almost June, and I will be leaving Coffs Harbor on the 6th to head back to Moree and work there for my last two months. My last two months, it still doesn't feel real... im so excited to head back there though, I truly miss the town and people that live there! Im excited to finally live with Skylar again I miss her more than anything... Its weird being away from your twin sister for more than a week.
I know in the last couple paragraphs I said two months multiple times... but you dont understand how weird it is for me to say its the last two months of being here. Soon enough it will be only one month... and then one week... and then one day!! ONE DAY :(
As much as I want to go home, see my family and hold my baby neice, Im dying to come back here!

ANYWAY

Today someone asked me what I wanted to do before I die.. They told me to think long and hard and I know what I want to do, there are a few things that I really want to do actually. And one of those things is come back to Australia before I die. And I will, preferably in November 2011!

I want to sky dive, I would love to know what it's like to fly even if its just for two minutes!!

I want to be a successful baby photographer!

I want to fall inlove, get married and have a perfect family of my own!

There are so many things I want, so many things I could do before I die and these are just a few

the weekend

So this weekend was pretty amazing...  Friday I hung out with Kailee and Dane ( i think ) and then on Saturday Prue, Charlie and I went down to the markets in Bellingen! They were massive!! I enjoyed myself, I bought some new headbands... and you might say im obsessed with the one :) LOVE IT! Well anyway, we went out for some morning tea while we were there, then we came back to Coffs! I knew it was going to be an amazing weekend because ELIZ, KAYLA, and MEHG were coming down for a wee visit!! They also brought along Kalyas friend McKayla from Canada who is in Australia for 2 months visiting her! Well when I got home from the markets I got a phone call from them telling me they were in coffs!! So I went to meet up with them at the plaza, then we went to find the hotel they were staying and just caught up!! We went out for dinner later on that night, and on are way back to the hotel the girls car decided to shit itself!! We couldnt get it going, so we left it on the side of the road, decided to just start drinking to forget about it... and walked back to the hotel ( we were honestly just down the street ) When we got back to the hotel, we got our drank on and started to get ready to head out to the coffs hotel... We started off pre drinking in the hotel then Kailee and her friend came to the hotel to pick us up and we went to go drink some more at Kailees house! We stayed there for a bit, did some planking bahaha then we went to the coffs hotel, danced all night then walked back to the hotel around 3am?? passed out woke up in the morning and eliz and i went to maccas ate then we went to the plaza, i got a boost juice and banana bread then we went back to my place to sleep! The girls ended up staying the night at mine, because they couldnt get their car into a machanic until the monday! So i got to spend an extra day with my favorite girls! We went out for dinner with Kailee and Dane, then watched a movie then came home and slept!! Monday was sad because they had to leave :( I miss them already, but the two days i got to spend with those crazy cats made me a very happy kitty cat!!

dumb day

So today, wasnt the greatest of days... I guess you could say i woke up on the wrong side of the bed

Its just one of those days, everything seems to be going wrong, you want things to go one way, they go the other. Someone says something and you take it the wrong way.  The smallest /stupidest things can just set you off and for no reason at all.

Some days i feel so lonely, and today was one of those days. Yeah, coffs is amazing but i have no one. Its not easy being by yourself 24/7 and talking to a one year old everyday takes its tole on you. Dont get me wrong, charlie is probably the only person that can actually cheer me up and put a smile on my face. Its almost as if he knows im having a bad day and he just wants to make it better. So today he did, whilst i was cleaning the bathroom, charlie came in and said "hello roey!" and basically jumped up to me and gave me the biggest cuddle anyone could ever give! For such a little man, he has the biggest heart <3 you never see that little boy without a smile on his face. He brightens up my day, i truly adore him.  Im going to miss him so much

Charlie isnt the only thing that can cheer me up though. Jock, Charlie, my camera and I went down to Emerald beach again today. And lets just say, put me behind a camera and you will have the happiest girl in the world. Put the ocean in front of the camera and I will be happy, put Charlie in front of the camera and I will be even happier! I got some amazing shots of the little man today, so I thought i would share them, because they brightened up my day, so if your having an off day, hopefully they will brighten up yours too!

Emerald Beach Photography

So there is heaps of beaches in Australia, like probably thousands! I have seen a few, but I have to say the best beach I have been to so far whilst in Australia would have to be Emerald Beach!

Emerald Beach in is NSW about 20 minutes outside of Coffs Harbor! And man, let me tell you this beach is TRULY stunning! Prue and Jock are renovating a house there, and I will be able to stay there for a wee bit before I move back to Moree! They have a fantastic view of the ocean again! Im excited to live their for a wee bit of my stay in Australia! Anyway, Prue, Chalrie and I went for a walk on the head land to see if we could see some whales... we didn't but still the view was amazing! I saw hundreds of Kangaroos, actually up close and not far away! And I finally got some pictures of them! The water was beautiful, and so was the day! I cant explain to you how amazing this beach is... you have to see it for yourself! Thats why in this blog all im going to really do is post pictures!!! YAYAYAYA

nicknames

So, in Australia everyone, and i mean everyone has nicknames! Honestly, basically everyone i know has a nickname!

Back at home, i would say nicknames arent as popular as they are here... I definitely didnt have one, and nor did any of my friends really..

Well here in Australia, I can finally say I have a nickname!! I have a couple actually.. and I love them!

My first nickname was from Miss Rosie Posie! She called me Relle, then Sarah and Willy started to call me Relle too! Same with the rest of their family! Relle is all thanks to Rosie, she started calling me Relle even before I came to Australia, I remember talking to Sarah and her telling me that Relle will probably be my new nickname! And it stuck! So thanks missy moo i love my nick name from you <3

My second nickname is Relish! Its a random/funny story... One night I was drinking with my friends Tilley, Cricket, and Tone Bone and Joel! Tilley is Matilda, Cricket is Chris, and Tone Bone is Tony! Joel is just Joel.. Anyway, I decided i wanted to call chris Cricket because not to many people called him Cricket.. then i was telling them they had to think of a nick name for me.. and out of no where Tone Bone decided to call me Relish! At first i was like NO way.. you cant call me that! Well, lets get real... lets just say Relish stuck, and i also love it too! Prue and Jock call me Relish, and Charlie calls me Roey! (he cant say Relish very well and if he really tries it comes out Roish)

Overall, i love my nicknames. They are fun!

Its funny to come to a country where nicknames are so popular, when back at home I dont recall they were! Australians love to shorten things!

Mcdonalds=maccas
Sweater=jumper
Barbecue=barbie
Bikkie=biscuit
the bush=the outback
chook=chicken
Chrissie=Christmas
dag=funny person
Down Under=Australia
G'day=hello
Icy pole=popsicle
Mate=friend
Nappy=Diaper
Dummy=soother
Piss=Beer (get on the piss)
Prezzy=Present
Roo=Kangaroo
Snag=sausage
Tea=Supper
Tucker=food
Uni=University
Ute= Pick up truck

Those are a few things the Aussies shorten!

man i love this country

Winter

Well, its one month away from winter in Australia, and yes it does get pretty chilly here!!! The mornings and evenings are freezing, the afternoons are alright but not hot. I miss the hot weather :( When i arrived in Moree in August it was winter, and there was frost on the ground in the mornings! I thought i was going to be coming to HOT HOT HOT weather, but no it was so cold!!! You would think that beucase I am from Canada, I would be able to handle it... well when I first arrived I tolerated it but did not like it one bit. And now that I have had a summer in Australia, the hottest summer I have ever had, I am shocked that it gets this cold and that I live in Canada!!! I am honestly wearing a long sleeve shirt and a jumper right now, and track pants.. and socks! I feel like im back home!! Not going to lie, im pretty excited to go back to Canada while it is still summer! I miss the heat, i miss the sun! I HATE THE COLD!

On and interesting note... it will be my first ever winter birthday!!!

Anyway, Skylar was here last week from monday till the following tuesday. It was a lovely week and I enjoyed having her in Coffs with me. I miss her heaps already, and wish she was still here. It wont be long till im back in Moree though.

We both got tattoos! My first, her third... i was so nervous, so scared! But it really wasnt as bad as i thought it would be. We got them on our ribs, and they say Imagine. I love it, it really is beautiful.

Imagine means alot.
I Imagined coming to Australia, and look where I am...
I use my imagination always, Im always imagining things. Everyone does, but not everyone follows there imagination.. I did.

(i hope that makes as much sense to you as it does to me)

Thinking

So today was my day off, and becuase it was finally sunny I spent my morning down at the beach just sitting there looking at the ocean, thinking. Honestly I hadn't seen the sun in so long I thought I would forget what it looked like, but thank goodness today it decided to grace us with its presence. It was beautiful, I am going to miss days like this in coffs. When the sun is shining, and its not to hot, but not to cold. The weather is just right, and the water is crystal blue. I'm going to miss Coffs when I leave, I will miss being so close to the ocean, I will miss being close to Kailee, and I will miss being so close to the mall. But I am excited to move back to Moree for the rest of my time here. Im sad I wont be working for Sarah and Willy, but I know I will see them heaps.

Coffs truly is one of the most beautiful places I have ever been too, surrounded by beautiful beaches what more could you really want? I have LOVED living by the beach, but my time is up here, and its time to go back to Moree, where I started off, and where I will finish.

I will miss Prue and Jock and my little man Charlie, and I'm a bit sad I wont be here for when she has the baby, but I will see them again, I know I will. They are amazing people, and Im glad I had the chance to work for them. Prue always knows what to say, and has a huge heart. And Jock is so easy going and laid back and all around an amazing guy. Charlie is one of the most placid little boys I have ever met, he is exactly like his mum, and just like his dad. He can always put a smile on my face, and always has one on his. He melts my heart and I love him to bits.

This year has gone by so fast, I cant believe its May already... soon enough it will be July and I will be leaving in 29 days.. 29days I cant imagine how fast those days will go by, when I look back and think about how fast this whole year has gone... I guess its true when they say time goes by fast when your having fun. Wouldnt it be so much better if it went by slow so that you could enjoy it that much more?

This day has just been a day of thinking, thinking about the past, the present and the future.
thinking about how im a bit scared to grow up, yet so excited.
just thinking about random, stupid little things.
thinking about how I miss my old friends, but Im going to miss my new ones so much when I leave.
thinking about how excited I am to meet my niece.
thinking about how excited I am to see Skylar again this week.
thinking about what I have regreted doing, and what I havent regreted doing.
thinking about what I have accomplished in my life.
thinking about why life is so short.
thinking about how Im going to be 20 soon and it feels so weird.
just thinking

My life is amazing, I wouldnt change anything, I'm content with the person I am today, and I feel I have changed for the better. I know coming to Australia has made me a different person. And I think me saying.. or me knowing that I have changed makes it pretty clear. I would have never said that before, I would have never admitted to changing. But I know I have. 

I know where I am going in life, and that makes me happy.